If You've Ever Had Your Heart Broken, Watch This | Simi Polonsky Speech | Goalcast

* If You've Ever Had Your Heart Broken, Watch This | Simi Polonsky Speech | Goalcast * In this moving speech about love and death, Simi Polonsky bares her soul.

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started with a virus a damn virus that told my life apart mrs. Polanski there's a 50% chance your husband won't make it that's what the doctor said to me word for word verbatim minutes before they rushed schewe into an 8 hour emergency heart surgery that was the last time I saw sure conscious within seconds my perfect happy life crashed and I dove into a downward spiral of uncontrollable anxiety and panic induced by doctors words that I couldn't understand or even accept how was I supposed to comprehend that my husband who was perfectly fine three days before was fighting for his life how was I supposed to understand that there was a chance that Shura might not come home when the doctor came out of the surgery and told us that she had made it I remember my shaking body instinctively running to go give him a hug but it wasn't reciprocated mrs. Polanski your husband is very very sick I know I know he is but he's gonna be fine he's gonna be fine mrs. Polanski I don't think you understand a virus has attacked your husband's heart his body is not working there's no magical cure we're gonna do our best to support him but he needs to fight back no the hospital became how unsolicited home for three weeks day became night and night became day most people don't survive longer than 24 hours with what sua had but he didn't give up he kept on fighting every single day whatever they said he kept on going at the time I was four months pregnant and I had lost almost 30 pounds from the stress I said to them I think you've made a really big mistake you don't actually know who this patient is he's not a regular patient this patient has two baby girls at home waiting every day for their daddy to come back this patient has studied for nine years and is weeks away from getting his doctorate in psychology he's going to be the best psychologist the world has ever seen I miss patient he's my everything and he's coming home the nightmare that was the hospital didn't end the way that we believed it would end the way we had the world believed it would end my visions of Shoah dancing out of the hospital with thousands of people were replaced with visions of a mom holding her seven-year-old daughter holding her for hours oh she cried and begged her daddy to come home mommy you promised me I'm sorry Emanuela I couldn't keep my promise [Music] my husband died and I lost the love of my life [Music] every day since she was been gone I battle with my mind not to take me back to the hospital where he spent the last three weeks fighting for his life but tonight I don't want to talk about death I want to talk about life because I need to live I would love to share with you one of my favorite Sheila memories most of you wouldn't know this about Joelle but man did he own the stage I wish you all would have seen him he would walk on in front of an audience people he didn't know anyone and he had this confident humility about him you couldn't take your eyes off he had poise and he had grace but he had swagger complete swagger but what stood out was sure more than anything was his ability to connect with people I was so proud of him always so proud to watch him speak and at home we would talk about our dreams and the future and I would stand with him and I would hold his face in my hands and I would say with such conviction I would say sure I don't know how and I don't know when but I promise you you are going to go around the world speaking one day it's taken millions and millions of nightmarish agonizing seconds for a little voice a little light inside that I thought was extinguished to make its way up and say see me please you have to let me out I know you're hurting and I know you're a pain but I need to come out a few weeks ago when I sat down to write this speech I asked myself send me what does it mean to live [Music] - this little voice everyday living means that I will give myself a chance even though I'm in pain living means knowing but I will love show up for the rest of my life and nothing will take that away from me living means that I will utilize my talents and my potential to their fullest because it redefines what purpose means to me every single day [Music] living means that I will hold on to the faith that one day I will love and be loved again and living means that right now on this stage I will try and understand what it means to be so broken and so whole at the same time [Applause] you know if God Himself would have come to me when she died and said to me you know sue me you're gonna live you're gonna talk about Showa and you're gonna tell your story I wouldn't have believed him because there was no way that I could survive this world without him but tonight I'm here and I'm humbled to share my journey with you because sharing it gives me the fire and the fuel to fight for life even one more day and I hope if I can even give one person that fire to fight and grab their life even just one more day then that's my gift that I can share and now she was right here and he's holding my face in his hands and he's saying sim I know it's hot but you are going to go around the world speaking one day [Music] [Applause] [Music] you you